Questions

I've been asking myself some questions recently. It's been a little trying time in some ways. The lonliness that won't subside. The longing to meet that person I haven't met yet. The fact that I'd rather be alone just to wallow in my own sorrow. There are many people who I know don't see it, mostly because I don't want them to or they just don't ask. I'm saying all this in general terms, not pointing any fingers at anyone other then myself. I worry about too much and worry that there is so much I don't want to change but I know will, but to what end? Who will I lose? Will I gain anyone or anything? Will those who mean the most to me not know that they do? Will I lose myself along the way? I know that everyone loves and cares but there are just those days that it just doesn't see like it anyone does...or maybe that it just makes it easier to be angry thinking they don't...

I know there has been a lot of wallowing on the blog lately and I know that I haven't been around on here a lot. I guess I just had to write this somewhere.

I remember a quote from Scrubs that fits accordingly: "It sucks to be alone, even when there are people all around you."