Sunday, May 31, 2009

The Marijuana Trick

http://www.thetruthseeker.co.uk/article.asp?ID=3774
Very interesting set of facts about the use of industrialized hemp products. I recognize that there are some holes in this article (i.e. the costs of the development of any of these processes) but it's still very interesting to read about.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Eye Candy...




Definitely for me. Gotta love some Jenny Lewis.

Where is she from? Remember that classic movie from the 80's, "The Wizard"? I barely do as well.

One can also find her formerly fronting Rilo Kiley and now embarking on a, hopefully, successful solo career.

Sexy.

ABCs

once again, raping and pillaging this from Facebook

A - Age: almost 24

B - Bed size: queen

C - Chore you hate: dusting

D - Dog's name: n/a

E - Essential start your day item: coffee

F - Favorite color(s): purple

G - Gold or Silver: silver

H - Height: 5'11"

I - Instruments you play: Voice, piano, french horn, clarinet, euphonium

J - Job title: Electrician

K - Kids: Hopefully someday

L - Living arrangements: In an apt with Douglas

M - Mom's name: Rebecca "Becks" Davies

N - Nicknames: Sparkles, Momo, Cottonmouth, Sparks, Parkus, Parkus McGarkus, Gaymo McLovesthecock

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: well... overnight isn't really right but - through the night after my bike accident

P - Pet Peeve: Slow human beings. Especially those standing in my way

Q - Quote from a movie: Just a random one? Ummm.... "I'll tell you who took those lunches! It was that damn Sasquatch"

R - Right or left handed: Right

S - Siblings: My big sis Sian

T - Time you wake up: exactly a half hour before I need to be where I need to be - 40 minutes if I shower

U - Underwear: Boxers, or if I'm wearing tight pants, boxer briefs (mmm boxer briefs are my favorite)

V - Vegetable you dislike: Celery!!! And carrots. Not a huge fan of cukes either

W - Workout style: Put on heaphones, run, stop running because I'm tired, start running again because I see someone else running past me and don't want to look like a puss, repeat

X - X-rays you've had: wrists, ankle, teeth, etc.

Y - Yesterday's best moment: Waking up next to my guy

Z - Zoo favorite: Hippopotamus

bored

Indiana is so boring. I almost forgot with how long it's been since I was here. But it sucks. Also, I have no money. So the majority of things that I could even theoretically do, I can't afford.
SO annoying. I should really take up some new hobby.
any suggestions?

p.s. I JUST realized that you can edit old posts by clicking on the little pencil icon. I'm an idiot

Friday, May 29, 2009

I Have....

Two Tickets to Pitchfork, Sat and Sun, July 18 and 19.

Who is going?

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Summer Camp Pre-Post

Well, SVG and I are back from Summer Camp and we have many stories to tell. Unfortunately, they need to be accompanied by some video and pictures. So once I get all of those thing off my camera (Hock, I need you!), a substantial post will be made.

UM rocked my fucking face off!

GOERG out

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

So effin bored...

65 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked...

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Hands

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Blue

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Never.

4. Do you plan outfits?
1st dates and weddings only

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
bored and wanting something to do

6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
the lampshade that i freaking love!

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
i cant remember the last dream I had...prolly from all the drunk sleep I get.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
nope.

9. What are you craving right now?
strangely, someone to kiss my forehead.

10. Do you floss?
No

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
not without brats

12. Are you emotional?
like a pubescent girl

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
why the hell would anyone without autism, a la rainman, do such a thing?

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
I hate ice cream...

15. Do you like your have?
absolutely. I think.

16. Do you like yourself?
I dont know. I mean, when is the last time I hung out with me and really spent some time getting to know me?

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Yes...because he would definitely be down for steaks...and steaks are delicious.

18. What are you listening to right now?
Explosions in the sky.

19. Were your parents strict?
Absolutely. Wouldnt have had it any other way.

20. Would you go sky diving?
Yes. Out of a plane, off of a building, anything to know what flying is like.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
no. its gross, and lumpy, and looks like demons.

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
I saw Howie Long in an airport once. I didnt know who he was at the time...and I still dont really care.

23. Do you rent movies often?
Does that include movies on demand? Cause if it does, then yes.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
you mean besides me?

25. How many countries have you visited?
Not enough.

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Hell yes. My favorite was the one where I had this guy convinced that I was going to buy a mazda. (dealership call, not a real person. That would be mean)

27. Ever been on a train?
Yes.

28. Brown or white eggs?
Brown. And I dont know why. I have no idea what the difference is, but they arent white.

29.Do you have a cell-phone?
Yes. The better question would be, "do you have a land line?" or "do you remember what a land line is?"

30. Do you use chapstick?
frequently. it helps my lips to feel kissably soft. (Anyone know what product used that as a tag line?)

31. Do you own a gun?
Hell no. Never. Unless I become a time-travelling gun-slinger.

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Kind of. Not for noodles, but for real food.

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
perhaps just myself

34. Are you too forgiving?
Maybe? Maybe I just let certain people, (ie, any girl I date) get away with too much.

35. Ever been in love?
Yes. It was the highest up and lowest down of my life.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Working. Hopefully having a couple beers.

37. Ever have cream puffs?
Whafuck are cream puffs? And no, I dont want one.

38. Last time you cried?
not long ago enough.

39. What was the last question you asked?
What the hell am I listening to?

40. Favorite time of the year?
Anytime its over 70, sunny, and breezey.

41. Do you have any tattoos?
Yes. Want it fixed up and then another.

42. Are you sarcastic?
Absolutely.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes

44. Ever walked into a wall?
If you havent, youre lying.

45. Favorite color?
Black or red...it really depends.

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
yes. and punched in the chest. and slapped.

47. Is your hair curly?
No, just sexy.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Relapse, by Eminem.

49. Do looks matter?
Yes. No mutants allowed.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I did. And she did it again. And again. And then she left me a year later. So it goes.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Nope...gotta love simply everything.

52. Do you like your life right now?
Couldnt even begin to answer in a sentence.

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
all the time.

54. Can you handle the truth?
yes

55. Do you have good vision?
no. not bad, but not great. like, i wouldnt have died if we were in a primarily hunter/gatherer society, but I wouldnt be king either.

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
yeah. why not? it gives life flavor. (fuck you, russell crowe)

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Quite a bit. More than I thought.

58. The last person you held hands with?
fuck'em

59. What are you wearing?
i hate this question

60.What is your favorite animal?
roosters

61. Where was your default picture taken?
on the floor where i used to live in Clinton Twp

62. Can you hula hoop?
Yes, but i havent done it in years. Sober.

63. Do you have a job?
Yes

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
breakfast.

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Absofuckinglutely!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Questions

I've been asking myself some questions recently. It's been a little trying time in some ways. The lonliness that won't subside. The longing to meet that person I haven't met yet. The fact that I'd rather be alone just to wallow in my own sorrow. There are many people who I know don't see it, mostly because I don't want them to or they just don't ask. I'm saying all this in general terms, not pointing any fingers at anyone other then myself. I worry about too much and worry that there is so much I don't want to change but I know will, but to what end? Who will I lose? Will I gain anyone or anything? Will those who mean the most to me not know that they do? Will I lose myself along the way? I know that everyone loves and cares but there are just those days that it just doesn't see like it anyone does...or maybe that it just makes it easier to be angry thinking they don't...

I know there has been a lot of wallowing on the blog lately and I know that I haven't been around on here a lot. I guess I just had to write this somewhere.

I remember a quote from Scrubs that fits accordingly: "It sucks to be alone, even when there are people all around you."

Friday, May 22, 2009

I dont need this coffee right now...

but Im drinking it anyway.

Because it isnt beer.

Which is what I would be drinking/am about to switch to/have switched to/ohmygodIdontneedthisbeereither.

Anyway...

...life is better. Much better, actually.

"Do you realize" that "the golden path" can get you to "turn it on" and force you to "race for the prize" instead of "waitin' for a superman"? I have definitely felt like I was "unconsciously screamin" about "bad days" but after a few nites in "brainville", away from the "drug machine" I discovered that "the will always negates defeat". "This here giraffe" really helped me quit "ego tripping at the gates of hell" and pushed me into a new way of thinking: "love the world you find".

I'm not saying that life is perfect, but I am saying that I am feeling much more positive about it.

I went to Las Vegas.
It was pretty sweet. Really an eye-opener about life and my job. I guess it is nice to feel appreciated and reminded that people notice what you do.
There are some things that will definitely (cliche alert) Stay in Vegas.

Seriously.

I am spending more time listening to the Lips, if you couldnt tell, and eagerly anticipating their new release, Embryonic. (Due out this September) ((tentatively))

07-19
Chicago Illinois.
Pitchfork Festival
Union Park

Lips. Live. In Concert.

I am going. I'll quit my job to do it.



Complete List of bands located here: http://www.pitchforkmusicfestival.com/index.php

Anyone up for it? Sunday is the Lips. Most likely going to just that.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

I'm Crying Inside

Cottonmouth, I am deeply hurt by your insensitive attitude toward my want for voids to be filled. I'm not really sure what I even mean, but sarcasm is lost on the internet

Anyways, what I really wanted to say was: Fuck McG for making Terminator Salvation a PG-13 rated movie. I'm sure I'll still like it, but by lowering the rating you are not keeping true to the movie's roots. You smuck. I hate how money wins out over creative freedom. It's a franchise built on over-the-top action and robots cursing like sailors. I wish that when a studio makes a "movie for the masses" that it comes complete with a blow job, because at least then I'll be able to handle the forced insertion of their 2 hour long dick into my ass for buying the ticket to see their mainstream garbage. Movies should be made for the audiences they are supposed to be targeted for. Cases in point:

Die Hard 4 should have been rated R. The unrated version did nothing more than add about 10 fucks to the movie. There was no blood, there was no soul. I apparently liked it only "because things exploded" (I hate you guys). I did enjoy it, but to me it did not feel like what a Die Hard movie should be. It felt very...mainstream

X-Men Origins: Wolverine...first off, the title is too fucking long. Just call it Wolverine for fucks sake. Second, Wolverine was never a PG-13 character. He has fucking metal claws. Chop someone in half, god dammit! He chopped off someone's hand in the comics (Silver Samurai's I do believe). I want more hard-assed Canadian chopping people up and not playing grab ass with Gambit. That never happened, but it might as well have. I was disappointed by the need to make it mainstream. They didn't need to. They have Ironman and Spiderman for that. Also, during the credits where they are fighting in the Civil War, that would have been a perfect time to show Logan get a cannonball through the chest and watch it heal up. But no, the movie is rated PG-13. Cool things can't happen if blood is involved. I may have forgiven the shitty CGI claws if they used a little blood in the movie...maybe.

I'll just have to wait and see what Terminator will be like in a couple of days. It better not suck...


Have you ever noticed that only about 1 in 10 hairdressers are hot? One came into a store today, and she was gorgeous. I wanted to tackle her, rip her clothes off, and make sweet nasty love to her right in the store with everyone watching. She was that hot. Then, a while later, other girls from the same salon came in and I wanted to show them a cross to see if they would catch on fire.

2 cents

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Fuck FB

I hate tagging people in facebook notes - so here's one copied here for the reading pleasure of the only people in my life who might actually care - courtesy of Rambo:

65 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked...

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Hair

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Blue

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Absolutely

4. Do you plan outfits?
Only for very special occasions

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
sleepy

6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
the sheets

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I can't remember specifics of the last dream I remember having, just some deja vu - i think i was in a real life episode of always sunny - which actually happens rather often - but the last details i remember from a dream were being in a treehouse/apartment where the people had a pet scorpion who fell onto the porch below theirs, and I went and got it and sorta nursed it back to health in their sink. later I ended up curling up to sleep on a couch with my friend Rachel (who's house I'm staying at currently)

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
kinda, Sophie was talking to me with some lady there with her, but didn't introduce me

9. What are you craving right now?
a particular warm body

10. Do you floss?
No

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Shoes

12. Are you emotional?
yes

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
no

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
I kinda gum it

15. Do you like your have?
I don't even know what this was SUPPOSED to say

16. Do you like yourself?
generally not in the slightest

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
No

18. What are you listening to right now?
a car driving past outside

19. Were your parents strict?
not really

20. Would you go sky diving?
with the right people, and the right peer pressure, yes

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
definitely

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Yes - Renee Fleming. She may mean nothing to you guys, but she's probably just about the most famous opera soprano in the world right now

23. Do you rent movies often?
no

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
a mirror?

25. How many countries have you visited?
7 - U.S., Canada, Mexico, U.K., Italy, France, Germany

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
yes

27. Ever been on a train?
yes

28. Brown or white eggs?
White

29.Do you have a cell-phone?
when was this thing written, 1998?

30. Do you use chapstick?
yes

31. Do you own a gun?
No

32. Can you use chop sticks?
yes

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
no one

34. Are you too forgiving?
always

35. Ever been in love?
Yes

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Fuck knows what Ideene's doing these days (sorry guys - I've known her the longest, she still gets that title). besides that - my other best friends are probably drinking and/or smoking pot tomorrow

37. Ever have cream puffs?
Yes

38. Last time you cried?
Um... it's been a while. Maybe last summer?

39. What was the last question you asked?
What's the best grocery store for me to go to this late at night?

40. Favorite time of the year?
mid-late summer

41. Do you have any tattoos?
No

42. Are you sarcastic?
I dunno... not really. A little capricious and facetious, but not so much sarcastic

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes

44. Ever walked into a wall?
I do probably once a week

45. Favorite color?
Used to be blue, but it's quickly becoming deep purple

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
YES!!! at the house of SVG hahaha

47. Is your hair curly?
Wavy

48. What was the last CD you bought?
the last album I bought was Miraculix-Detonator. The last cd was... Radiohead - In Rainbows

49. Do looks matter?
yes, but they aren't everything

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Maybe not entirely, but yes, I have.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
yes. especially this month with roaming charges.

52. Do you like your life right now?
honestly... not really. it has its positives, but I'm having a lot of trouble.

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
never

54. Can you handle the truth?
yes

55. Do you have good vision?
no

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
no I don't think so

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
once every few days, usually to Pat, Sian or Mike

58. The last person you held hands with?
Florie!!! My super hot french girlfriend in my Marriage of Figaro scene

59. What are you wearing?
boxers. nothing else

60.What is your favorite animal?
hedgehog! with sloth at a close second. and hippo at a close third

61. Where was your default picture taken?
Uhhh.... on facebook? Hock, SVG and Goergs living room

62. Can you hula hoop?
yep

63. Do you have a job?
Yes

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
groceries

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Have I ever!!!

Mock

WHHHAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! NO ONE EVER POSTS ANYMORE. MY LIFE HAS LOST ALL MEANING SINCE THE CLUSTERFUCK WENT SILENT!

:)

I'll be in EL sometime early next week, fyi. So uhhh.... roll out the red red carpet or something.

p.s. the label is simply because it's probably my favorite tag we have on here. and yeah, Rambo, if you feel so inclined, you're more than welcome to suck it.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

I need a little monkey

A little monkey who will sit on my shoulder, and every time I start thinking I'm not good enough (for anything), it will just slap me across the face and grunt at me.
That's what I need

Saturday, May 16, 2009

I'm pretty sure...

...that my ipod got stolen out of my car. I didn't look a lot because I'm already stressed out enough but yeah. that blows. Fuck my life.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Fuckingay Megan Fox

In an article I thought would make me and especially Mike would enjoy, Megan Fox is apparently bisexual - in about the most unfortunately closed-minded way possible.

"I think people are born bisexual and they make subconscious choices based on the pressures of society. I have no question in my mind about being bisexual. But I'm also a hypocrite. I would never date a girl who was bisexual, because that means they also sleep with men, and men are so dirty that I’d never want to sleep with a girl who had slept with a man."

I hate that first sentence. The pressures of society? Society certainly wasn't pressuring me to like guys, but that's how it happened - in fact quite the opposite. What this makes her sound like is just another experimental college girl - which is fine - but to make such a brazen comment about ALL sexual orientations? Sigh

Ah well, regardless, I thought this would give you some dream-fodder Hock.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Self-Medication

One more thing before I'm off to bed. So I haven't smoked in two weeks - or maybe more. Which is unusual for me. But it amazes me how badly my generalized anxiety and panic attacks have come back. I miss my bud (haha get it?)
Seriously, anyone who doesn't believe in the use of medical marijuana, let me give my own personal thumbs up. I know it's not great for my throat, but the juice is certainly worth the squeeze.

Incidentally I really like the phrase "is the juice worth the squeeze"
:)

Cottonmouth Out!

Also

Deviled eggs are delicious. Thank you for reminding us of their glory SVG

Alright LADIES

Let's break up the passive aggressive catfight.

Post whatever you want whenever you want.

Yes Goerg and Claudio, I love to see you on here - I dunno from other people's standpoints but it's just cause I miss you guys

And Hock and Kiznox - yeah it became a bit of a sobfest for a while there, and that's fine, but just because YOU guys have a lot to say doesn't mean we all do. We've all taken breaks from posting. Doesn't mean people aren't reading.

We made this shit because we're friends. Personally I'M sick of the bitchy comments. You'd think I was the straight one and YOU guys were the queers ;) hehehe

Miss you all - see you guys soon - 311 or maybe before. or maybe after. soon regardless

Big City Ghettos

So throughout my travels I have found out that most big cities are actually ghettos. Detroit...ghetto. Lansing...ghetto. Orlando, Louisville, and Cincinnati...ghetto. I'm not a scientist, but that seems a little strange to me. The big cities that states are known for are usually their ghettos. I guess that's where the scum want to live, it just seems weird to me that that is also where the big businesses are. I guess I'll never understand it.


P.S. Go Red Wings!!!!!

Part VII

There is this Asian guy on YouTube that goes by the name Luxe37, and he makes some sweet ass stop-motion/live-action toy car chases. I have no real clue what any story is supposed to be, but so far there are 8 parts. This one is, according to the title of this post, #7. I'm not saying it's the best one of the series, I just really like it. #6 is also very good. I suggest watching them all

This might not be profound, but...

Leela, theres nothing wrong with anything.

Deviled Eggs

Today Goerg and I made a shit ton of deviled eggs.

Nothing special, but apparently Hock just wants us to post as often as possible regardless of how insignificant it is, so we're "contributing".

By the way, I totally agree with Goerg about what the blog turned into there for a little while.

Vegas...

I am going to Las Vegas this Sunday. Yup, for work. Yup, could be a downer...but! I am starting to get really excited for this trip.

Its going to be one hell of an experience. I will be working my ass off, but I get to go somewhere. I have been thinking about how awesome it is going to be to go...well...anywhere. I have never been to Vegas, and quite a few people have told me great things about it. I dont gamble much, mostly because blackjack is not a cheap game to play, but there is so much to do. I doubt that I will have a ton of time, but I WILL DO SOMETHING EXCITING AND FUN!!!

Anybody got ideas that dont involve tattoos or hookers about things to do in las vegas!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

You know youre an alcoholic when...

you get that same "empty pocket" feeling when you dont have any beer left in the fridge as you would get when you no longer have cigarettes.

Also,

you know youre a smoker when you actually understand the "empty pocket" feeling.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Trek Wars?

This is too good to pass up



Sorry, when it posted it cut off the right side, so I tinkered with the size for it to fit. My suggestion is just watch it in full-screen

Booyah...

Can a brutha get a post?

First off, Hock, don't tell me what to do. I haven't posted on the CFuck in a while because it was going in this "My Life Sucks" direction...and that ain't my bag. But I read anything and commented, so isn't that enough?

I have barely reached over half way through the next batch of 50 movies. I have stopped cramming them into my day, mostly because I fall asleep super early and never have anytime to do so. So I'll post these twenty some odd movies for your enjoyment.

Cream of the Crop: Fanboys, Under The Hood/Tales of the Black Freighter, I Love You, Man, Twilight, The Ice Harvest, Monster vs. Aliens 3D, The Last Kiss, Adventureland, Observe and Report, I Want Someone to Eat Cheese With, Push

Comments: As far as the Watchmen side stories are concerned, Black Freighter was boring (and not how I remember it in the novel), but Under The Hood was awesome and really well done. It was definitely a good extra. Observe and Report was surprisingly serious and dark, very good. Claudio and I saw MvA3D on shrooms...it rocked. I saw I Love You Man in theatres twice with Claudio (but he only saw it 1 time and ten minutes of the other). Rudd/Segel combination hit it off the charts! I did enjoy Twilight, but not as much as all the hype. I have been on a Kristen Stewart kick as of late, I think she is a great actress and a fox, in that grungy rock chick way that I like so much! Push had a really interesting take on the super hero thing. It's worth a watch.

Middle of the Road: Nick of Time, Sould Out: A Threevening with Kevin Smith, Factory Girl, The Tracey Fragments, PS I Love You, Hitch, T2: Judgement Day, Marley & Me, In The Land of Women

Comments: Factory Girl was the story of Edie Sedgewick and Andy Warhol and it was really great except for that Bob Dylan was played by Hayden "Ruins Movies" Christiensen! He can't act! PS I Love You and Marley were terribly sad. Sold Out was very funny but his stories were extremely long winded.

Swing and a Miss: Bride Wars, Arthur and the Invisibles, The Sandlot 3: Heading Home, The Fountain, Bottoms Up

Comments: True Story, Claudio and I watched Bride Wars and not two weeks later, I redownloaded it not even thinking I had ever seen it. How bad must that movie be? Bottoms Up had Jason Mewes in it, so it had promise, but the acting and writing was bad on it, so thumbs down. The Fountain was too confusing for me to get into. Sandlot 3 plot: Luke Perry goes back in time to save the sandlot...and to set his life right.

Peace,
GOERG

Donnie Darko Revisited

So we all know that the bully in Donnie Darko is played by the lead singer from Phantom Planet (Alex Greenwald), but do you remember who played his lackey? Take a closer look:

That's right - the other thug at Donnie's school is none other than funny man Seth Rogen :)

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

You know you're getting old when... (part 2)

You're the last one to finish when shotgunning a beer

You wake up by 8am every day regardless of how tired you are

You realize that zits are not just a phase you go through during puberty

You start thinking that people in their 30s are in your generation

You look in the mirror and honestly are surprised at what you see - several times (swear to god, this happened to me today, I thought I was having an acid flashback)

You make inadvertent grunts and groans every time you stand up or sit down

You can predict what parts of your body are going to hurt the next day

Movies that came out during your lifetime are being remade
i.e. Batman, The Neverending Story, Clue, The Bad Seed, Day of the Dead, Escape from New York, The Hills Have Eyes Part II (the original part I is from the late 70s), The Hulk, The Hitcher, Friday the 13th (a little old, but worth mentioning), Can't Buy Me Love, Man On Fire, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe etc.

You have a significant other and still haven't had sex for 2 months (I know it's the distance... but fuck I'm horny)

Your favorite features of your car are the electrically powered, plush, comfortable seats and manually dimmable dashboard lights (in case the bright lights are hurting your eyes at night)

You find yourself falling on the back end of technology because you just don't feel like putting in the effort to learn how it works

You find yourself ignoring new popular music because for the most part it "just isn't as good as music was 10 years ago"

You realize a few beers and a few bowls with good friends is better than any of the parties you've ever been to

You should probably watch this...Over and over again!

You know you're getting old when...

You get pots and pans for your birthday...and get ridiculously giddy.

You poop 3 times in 5 hours and it is mostly farts. (although, that could have been the drinking coupled with the 3am munchfest of chocolate chocolate cake.)

You get a ton of laundry done, put it away, and admire how sexy your closet now looks.

Your back hurts. From carrying laundry. Seriously.

You start listening to NPR on line. Why the fuck am I listening to this?

You get annoyed with elevators and let your mind wander to this weird magical place where elevators take you directly to your destination, not just the door, even though you are a mere 30 feet from said destination when you actually get off.

You think to yourself, "gee, I wonder if Julia Roberts is still a good lay."

You leave the computer to go poop/fart again.

You not only receive, but actually read, (with interest) the AAA magazine that explains all of your AAA membership benefits. Did you know, as a AAA member, that I save 10% on books, DVDs, CDs, and other purchases at Barnes and Noble? AND, that I get an extra 15% off the most expensive item in my order? Did you know that I never fucking shop there but am about to start? Cause I am.

You bitch about your medicare benefits...cause we all have none. Like, NONE. Medicare is spending more than it is bringing in. Damn kids, not putting enough into my fucking retirement.

You shower, mostly, sitting down.

You really just dont "get" twitter.

You're still wondering about Julia Roberts, even though you really dont find her attractive but feel like if you could time travel to the days of Pretty Woman it would be worth it.

You decide not to close your closet doors because they are mirrors and that would be depressing because gravity and laziness are not as kind as you really wish they would be.

You miss Tom Cavanagh being on television.

You realize that you never really grow up...just become more aware of every moment as time goes on.

You appreciate that you never actually killed yourself doing the dumb shit that you did in high school.

You finally feel pride in who and what you are.

Where the fuck is everyone?!

Rambo?

Goerg?

Claudio doesn't contribute anyways.

Only 3 of us actually post anymore


Boo, you who don't

Monday, May 11, 2009

Internet and time

I got the internets working and the time to type something, so here it goes

Hold on. I know I have something to say.


No...wait...oh, damn, I got nothing really.


Wolverine was a decent movie, but the special effects on the claws were laughable. LAUGHABLY BAD! That is inexcusable in today's world where special effects are beyond spectacular. This movie had a huge budget, yet the claws looked 1000 times better in the first Xmen movie, which came out 9 years ago! The rest of the movie was pretty decent though, despite the 107 minute run time.

Star Trek on the other hand, was PHENOMENAL! I was never a fan of Star Trek, but this movie is definitely a winner. It is a re-imagining of the original story, with a shit-ton more action and a good script. This movie may win over those (like myself) who previously hated the series, and with good reason. This movie rocks! Everyone played their parts exceptionally well. I didn't even know Eric Bana was the bad guy, Nero. I suggest everyone sees it, especially you Claudio. I know it'll make you go from 6 to midnight.

I am super excited for Terminator Salvation

I still hate my job

I also hate Sports Center's Top 10 not listing Jiri Hudler's goal from yesterday's Red Wings game anywhere in there. He slapped the puck out of the air for a goal. I don't watch SC very often, so if it's the Top 10 from today only, then that's just stupid. Fuck you, fuckers

Why is it that when I get deja vu, its always something stupid and insignificant? Why can't I get deja vu when I'm getting a BJ or something better?

Well, its time to sleep so I can get up for another day of bullshit

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Greetings From Canadia, Eh

Well Canada is amazing. I'm having an absolute blast, have made a bunch of new friends, and generally have been working my nuts off. In general, we start at 8:30am and I get home around 10:30pm. It's intense, but I already feel like I've known the people here for years because of the amount of time we spend together. A lot of people rag on me about my American accent (their favorite is how I say "backpack" - and last night they got a good laugh out of how I said "the wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald" - which usually comes out much more like "the wreckathee eh-mmm fitzjairl"). It's fun though - makes me kind of proud of it in a bassackwards kind of way.

It's weird being away from home for so long, and away from people I know, but it'll be fine - I know it'll be over before I know it. I've been pretty manic since I got here - probably the combination of lack of sleep, sensory overload, different environment, etc. I tend to get myself into stupid loops of thinking - in particular, for some reason, about Patrick - but I do this sometimes, so I just have to keep myself in check. I just miss him... and for that matter everyone, but I suppose I've already had time to adjust to not seeing you guys as much as I wish I could. I'm excited to get back to MI, but I know how much I'm gonna miss it here. Its just different, ya know.

Anyway, I hope those of you who are going to summer camp have a blast (since I can almost guarantee I won't see you before you go) and I'm thinking about you all a lot. See you guys soon.
Much Love
-Cottonmouth Out

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

All's well that ends well

Glad to see things are starting to look up. :)

And frankly, sometimes it takes a little bit of collective dickery before things can get smoothed out.

On my end? Well, I love Canada, have quickly befriended the majority of the people here, sang a master class for the head of the NY festival of song and one of the casting directors for NYC opera - who told me my performance was emotionally devastating (much higher praise than a lot of people got), and his only suggestion was to pull it back to avoid freaking out the audience too much (I sang the angry one of the set I did in Lansing)

And... I was awarded a 5000 dollar scholarship for school next year to complete my studies.

So life ain't all that bad I suppose :)

Also - my new car is the FUCKING SHIT!!! It's like two couches on wheels. Just wait until I put some new speakers in that bitch.

And to clarify...

no one was hurt. The apartments dont have even minimal smoke damage. And she is absolutely fine.

Which is all great.

And, frankly, I have been thinking quite a bit about the situation and...well...I guess I can be a fucking asshole sometimes. Thats a completely serious statement...and something that I should work on.

You know what?

I am really looking forward to the summer.

My life will be way easier at work.

I wont make any fucking money...and I dont care.

I'll have a vacation...somewhere.

I'm going to try to see some concert. Any concert. I'll consider it a success if I get to go to fucking Mac's and see someone that I have at least heard of.

I'll finally have enough time to have any time. For anything. Time to sit and relax. Time to breathe. Time to not let my frustrations get the best of me. Time to go out with friends that I haven't been able to see in forever. Time for a hobby. Time for a life. Time to walk up to random people and say, "Hi."

Time.

Maybe enough to smoke some fucking pot every once in a while.

The place I work was founded by one of history's biggest fuck-ups...and I don't believe for an instant that old habits left the building as quickly as we are forced to usher them out the door.

And there it is. There is what has been getting to me. And it shows. At least, I feel like it shows. I feel like I have grown up without realizing it. Or, grown up in a lot of ways and missed the opportunity to actually let it happen. Or not grown up at all and had no time to even try. Or...fuck it.

I want to be me and I have not been that in a quite a while.

Me is the guy who crawls inside of a speaker like its some sort of vibrating turtle shell just so I can be near the fucking bass. Me is the guy that has a creative shit storm going on inside that grey or pink matter inside my skull. Me is the person with hopes and dreams and enough belief in the impossible and improbable to make it happen. Me is the guy that I love to hate because even I fucking argue with him. Me is everything that I have been missing...Me is getting a comeback chance in the next couple of weeks.

And Me is very fucking happy about it.

Things and Stuff

I think I know what I want to do with my life. I want to drive a car really fast and recklessly. I would have the time of my life just being a stunt driver. Sure I could get hurt, but I don't care. If I could drive a car with total disregard for everything, within the aspect of a scripted event, it would be an euphoric experience for me. Fast and Furious wasn't the greatest flick in the world, but the driving is top notch and that is what I want to do. I want to drive. Drive fast. Drive fun. Crash things. Have fun. That's what life should be about, having fun.


Hotel bars suck. They are expensive, boring, and almost never better than any other bar. Their only upside is convenience. They are located in the hotel, so you can get drunk and walk (err, stumble) back to your room. But if you get that drunk, it would be like $50. Fuck you hotel bars!


Nancy Grace needs a better job. She's been talking about the same story for at least 2 months now. Literally! Every time I pass by the channel she's on, it's ALWAYS the same story. Why does she have a fucking show?! She's not even attractive. She's an ugo with a big mouth. How does she have a show!?

Monday, May 4, 2009

Phone

If any of you tried to call me this weekend, if you happened to be in town, my phone was on the fritz. I had the Disturbed concert Saturday night at Cobo and spent a lot of the night at Greektown and was pretty unreachable anyway. It should be alright now, they found a problem with the battery. I would get a call and then not get a call, etc. Really really hope I didn't miss anyone...

Community

A new comedy about community college starring Joel McHale, Chevy Chase, John Oliver (is that his name?). This sounds very promising. Look for it in the fall on NBC.




Oh, and Heroes will be back for season 4. Let's hear it for good storytelling!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Thanks Karma...

So this might be wrong...this might be horrible to say...but,

HAHAHAHA!

The building attached to yours caught fire today. It may have destroyed your apartment. The block surrounding your place is barricaded and no one is allowed in. For days.

I know I shouldnt really feel this good about it. But still, I do.

Pretty fucking twisted, though.

Mandate

Life is not that bad

Working is not that bad

If you hate everything, you've made the choice to do so

I've got news for you: this is as good as it gets. and it's fucking amazing. Life is a gift that we all take for granted. Stop focusing on the negative, start focusing on the positive.

Did you eat today? Are you getting paid for what you do? Do you have a roof over your head? Are you reasonably healthy? Are there people out there who love you?

The answer is yes. No question

Today is only today. This year is only this year

We are young, vibrant, intelligent, talented people

If our jobs/classes/work/relationships/friends/worlds don't suit us
then FUCKING CHANGE THEM

I'm lucky to have the job I have, even though it doesn't pay me enough to survive. I'm happy for the friends I have, even if the only way I see them is if I drive for hours on end to do so. I have learned more from "classwork" than my grades, or a diploma, or a degree, or multiple degrees will ever indicate.

CARPE FUCKING DIEM

I'm sorry for having complained so much on here. I'm a spoiled brat in the grander scheme of things. And I'm gonna do my best to recognize how great I have it.





ps. this is not meant to piss anyone off, but seriously. let's make a difference here. we are all way too good to put up with bullshit against our will

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Can I quit my job?

Or my life?


Cause...maybe...its just so fucking lame that I would give anything to be nothing.


Just watching Forgetting Sarah Marshall and wishing that life was more like...well, anything but this.

Dear Kim Kardashian

I have just two questions.

1) Who the fuck are you and why do you and your vapid, annoying family have a TV show.
and (on a related note)
2) What the FUCK EVER gave you the idea that THIS was a good idea:

Sick. I think I just vomited in my mouth a little. It's bad enough your ass is the size of Liechtenstein, do you have to draw attention to it with an eighties disaster consisting of a Unitard and multicolor sequined tights?

Brief Update Before I'm Off To Canadia

So yesterday, and this week in general, was hell. I had to do all of my work for finals a week early (which is almost all done, except for one 8 page paper/project). Yesterday started off by me waking up early to grade exams for an hour and a half, then I went into school where I promptly received a 50 dollar parking ticket. Shortly after I heard the news that my Mom has been temporarily laid off - 9 weeks. Her entire department now no longer exists, so she's not optimistic that they will hire her back, this just means that they don't have to offer her any severance pay or benefits upon leaving. In the last 6 months, her department went from 25 people to 2, her boss and her. Her boss was also laid off yesterday.
I then paid my 180.00 cable bill from the last two months, my 120.00 phone bill from last month (because I have had so little money recently that my phone was shut off and I had to pay a reactivation fee). I then packed and worked on a CD I had to make for a project that is due tuesday - it took too long to burn, however, so the office was already closed when I went to turn it in and it is now residing with the first person I thought I could pawn it off onto, even though I'm not confident that he will turn it in on time.
Then Doug and I left for Michigan. About 20 minutes down 37, it became apparent that there was something wrong with my transmission. Then the power steering went, and my battery light came on. We stopped to check it out, and in addition to the transmission going, the serpentine belt had snapped and was no more. I managed to get the car to volunteers of america while Sian drove up to Indy, picking up Doug on the way, and picked up a rental car at the airport to drive us up to Michigan because her tires are fucked. Volunteers of America wouldn't let me leave my car there. In fact, they were angry that I was even waiting in their parking lot for my sister to get there so we could make alternate plans. Founded in Christ my ass. I asked if I could leave it there, and their response was "No sir, this is private property we'll have your vehicle towed". "What if I call first thing in the morning?" "We can't let you do that sir, this is private property, if you leave it here we will tow your vehicle." "Well do you have any suggestions of someplace I could take my car." "No. You need to move your vehicle, sir, this is private property." Keep in mind this was all via intercom while I was standing in the freezing rain. And it took me a while before I could even get them to turn on the intercom, instead of trying to talk through the door. And I got news for y'all: saying "sir" makes things infinitely LESS polite. If they had said "I'm sorry, but there's nothing we can do to help you," I would have been more appreciative.
So Sian and Doug got there and I followed them to Aaron's sister's, another 20 miles away, as my headlights slowly dimmed. Thankfully we made it, even though by the time we got there it smelled as if the engine was on fire. Now I find out that they might tow my car ANYWAY, because it doesn't have a plate on it anymore because I needed to bring the plate up to put on my new car. Oh I forgot to mention - the plate transfer cost 150.00. We made it home at about 3:00am, when I had left Bloomington at 5.

So moral of the story? No complaints about your lives to me for at least 2 weeks, I got ya beat.

Much love,
J Cottonmouth