What the fuck is wrong with women?

Why are women the most confusing beings on this planet? I can't figure a damn thing out with them.

The Goergys!!!

Here is my attempt at an award show, only honoring my favorite bands and CDs. The criterion for deciding was based on all the music I’m really into since I considered myself a music fan (circa 5-6 years ago). Some of these categories are intense to pick something out so I will pick a winner (denoted by *****)and then show the nominations. FYI: You probably won’t see many pop-punk acts.

Best Song (recent):

Ima Robot, “Pouring Pain”
The White Stripes, “My Doorbell”
Say Anything…, “That is Why”
***Devendra Banhart, “Long Haired Child”***
Flaming Lips, “Free Radicals”

Favorite Guitar Hero Song:

An Endless Sporadic, “Impulse”
The Sleeping, “Don’t Hold Back”
***Die Toten Hosen, “Hier Kommt Alex”***
Fall of Troy, “F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X.”
Eric Johnson, “Cliffs of Dover”

Best New Artist:

Crack The Sky
Apollo Sunshine
***Ima Robot***
Minus The Bear
Le Tigre

Album of this Year (’07 and ’08):

Mars Volta, “Bedlam in Goliath”
Umphrey’s McGee, “The Bottom Half”
Minus The Bear, “Planet of Ice”
***Radiohead, “In Rainbows”***
Say Anything…, “In Defense of the Genre”

Best Classic Rock Album:

The Beatles, “Revolver”
The Police, “Regatta De Blanc”
***Queen, “A Night at the Opera”***
Pink Floyd, “Dark Side of the Moon”
Jimi Hendrix, “Are You Experienced?”

Best Rap/Hip-Hop Album:

***DJ Dangermouse, “The Grey Album”***
NERD, “In Search of…”
Eminem, “Marshall Mathers LP”
Outkast, “The Love Below”

Best Electronic Act/Album:

Postal Service, “Give Up”
***Freezepop, “Future Future Future Perfect”***
LCD Soundsystem, “Sound of Silver”
Blaqk Audio, “Cex Cells”
Infected Mushroom, “Vicious Delicious”

Best Acoustic Act:

Xavier Rudd
KT Tunstall
Devendra Banhart
Jamie Cullum
***Cat Stevens***

Best Cover Song:

***The White Stripes, “Walking With the Ghost”***
Me First and the Gimme Gimmes, “Wild World”
Alien Ant Farm, “Smooth Criminal”
Allister, “Fraggle Punk Rawk”
Muse, “House of the Rising Sun”

Best CD that Remind Me of “That Summer”

Brand New, “Deja Entendu”
***Umphrey’s McGee, “Anchor Drops”***
Radiohead, “OK Computer”
Jimmy Eat World, “Bleed American”
DJ Shadow, “The Private Press”

Best Concept Album:

The Mars Volta, “De-Loused in the Comatorium”
***Brian Wilson, “Smile”***
The Mars Volta, “Frances The Mute”
My Chemical Romance, “The Black Parade”
Flaming Lips, “Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots”

Favorite Band That the Mass Media Doesn’t Support (Indy?):

Architecture in Helsinki
***LCD Soundsystem***
Freezepop
Ima Robot
Thom Yorke

Best Soundtrack:

***Juno***
Accepted
I am Sam
Garden State

Best Psychedelic / Experimental Album:

*****Pink Floyd, “The Dark Side of the Moon”*****
The Mars Volta, “Amputechture”
Hallucinogen, “In Dub”
Flaming Lips, “Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots”
George Harrison, “Wonderwall Music”
The Beatles, “Magical Mystery Tour"

Best Guilty Pleasure Album:

***Panic! At the Disco, “A Fever You Just Can’t Sweat Out”***
Blink-182, “Take Off Your Pants and Jacket”
Fall Out Boy, “From Under The Cork Tree”
My Chemical Romance, “The Black Parade”
Say Anything…, “…is a Real Boy”

Best Live Performance:

Umphrey’s McGee, “Live at the Murat”
***Umphrey’s McGee, LC Pavilion, 11/30/07***
Minus The Bear, Live at the Melkweg, 11/30/06
AFI, “I Heard a Voice”
Queen, “Live at Wembley ‘86”

Foreword: Most of these bands extend into more than one decade, so I applied the decade of the artist by looking at when my favorite albums were made or what decade they most closely represent to me. Enjoy.

Greatest Band (by Decade):
60s: The Beatles
Honorable Mention: The Beach Boys
70s: Four-way tie: Led Zeppelin / Pink Floyd / The Police / Queen
80s: Joe Jackson / Elvis Costello
90s: Radiohead
Honorable Mention: Red Hot Chili Peppers
00s: Umphrey’s McGee
Honorable Mention: AFI

Hope you liked the Goergys. See ya’ll next year! Peace out!

So...

I met a boy. :) Nothing serious, but he is seriously GREAT. So chill, very fun to hang out with, pothead, really good looking, basically the whole package. So yeah this is a good distraction from what's going on in life haha. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

UPDATE: Um... so yeah, new information: his body is fuckin SMOKING hot... just sayin... ;)

Sorry I'm gaying it up on here again, but you know, I'm just excited

Correction!

The Challenger SRT-8 does come with an optional manual. Rock on...now only if I had $40,000 lying around.

Courtesy of CollegeHumor's 105%

So 105% is always hilarious, but this tidbit got an extra chuckle from me:

Awesome tramp stamp idea for a homosexual gentleman: "Members Only."
-Derek Walborn

Incentive Program

So for resigning at my apartment for next year I was entered in a lottery to win prizes. I was expecting gift certificates and other stupid crap. But what did I win? brand new light fixtures for my apt to be installed tomorrow!

This is fuckin awesome because my light fixtures are ugly and have paint all over them from a sloppy recoat job. Jess even said that was her number one complaint about the place. With the obvious exception of the whole being able to hear a pin drop in my neighbor's apartment thing. But seriously - what a great idea. It makes your residents happy, and it means when other apts light fixtures break, you have one less to replace.

Of course this means I have to clean like mad tonight because I still really haven't done that since you slobs came to visit a few weeks ago. but that's ok, it'll be good to get rid of some of the chaos in my life

Bisco '08

So... Bisco's gonna have to step it up a little if they want me to sign on, but a few acts I'm excited about

Disco Biscuits (haha... surprise surprise)
DJ Shadow and Cut Chemist
Younger Brother (which consists of the DJs Prometheus and Hallucinogen)
Eliot Lipp
Amplive

there are some others that are cool, but I don't know them as well... Orchard Lounge, Tea Leaf Green, the New Deal, !!!, MSTRKRFT, 2020 Soundsystem

now to the layman, this is not that exciting of a lineup. But Umphreys and STS9 have not signed up for anything in July (well sts9 has rothbury, but that's it). Nor has Bassnectar. and if Prometheus did his own set I'd crap myself (what we listened to while tripping in Florida).

So I'm just watching and waiting for some artist additions... The other thing (sad).

I might not be able to go to Rothbury.

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I know. It's awful. My parents want me to be in England for my cousins' party, which would be fun, but it would also kinda kill me if I couldn't go to rothbury. But if Bisco's lineup improves, I might be able to justify it better, because bisco's also about 100 dollars cheaper than Rothbury.

AHHHH SO MANY THINGS I HAVE TO THINK ABOUT.

I'm gonna go sleep for a bit

Finally Dodge Does Something Right

Unveiled a couple of days ago at the New York Auto Show, Dodge announced 2 new versions of the Challenger!!! A basic SE with a V6, which will compete with the V6 Ford Mustang and probably a V6 version of the new Camaro coming out soon. The next model is the legendary R/T, with the 5.7L Hemi V8 with an increased horsepower rating of 375! That should blow away the Mustang GT and V8 Camaro. The best part...they finally are including a manual transmission! I hope this is a step in the right direction where our dumbass American automakers will start putting manuals back into cars. Starting at around $20,000, these Challengers should be a great alternative to the SRT-8 model that is valued at $40,000, which by the way has no manual transmission...how lame. Thank you, Dodge, for finally bringing out versions of these cars that I might actually be able to afford.

Alternative Eye Candy of the Day

AT LAST!!! the triumphant return of HOT half naked men.

brought to you by Jesse Metcalfe, a.k.a. John Tucker must get in my pants

You have 10 minutes left to sleep,

Hock, before I wake you up/check to see if you are already awake. Hopefully you were able to get some rest after staying up all night working on that project.

So yeah, it has been a fairly interesting night. I layed down to take a nap last night around 530p, fully expecting to wake up around 7p. What time did I wake up? 3am. 3 in the fucking AM. SHIT! That was one hell of a guilty pleasure. Why the guilt? Well, I am pretty sure that I locked the apartment before I decided to hop in the 'ole haystack and fuck the sleep fairy.

I FEEL AWFUL. SORRY ABOUT THAT.

3 AM. Hock was still up working on some crazy project of his so I talked to him for a little bit. He needs to be up around now, so I am going to go check on that and then come back for a bit more writing....oh the places you'll go.

Prior to that ridiculous napsleep I watched a couple movies. First was this amazing flick called Fallen with Denzel Washington and Jon MuthaFuckin' Goodman. It was very Stephen King-esque and would not be surprised if it actually was a King novel. Anywho, this movie promted the beginning of aa comic or book or story that I am going to begin centering entirely on nuns. Don't fret, Catholic community, I think nuns are sexy and are therefore going to do good. In a sexy way. So, perhaps fret a little if the whole "sexy nun" thing bothers you.

Then I got to see that Kevin Bacon movie Death Sentence. Yup, it was on demand and I decided to order the fuck out of it. I mean, who could pass up a Kevin Bacon movie where he loses his shit and kicks the hell out of bad guys? No one. You know why? Because Bacon has some sort of cosmic power over people. No idea where he got it, no idea how it works, but I am telling you that the guy has powers. I swear.

Currently I am listening to some of the coolest spanish music that I have ever heard. It makes me wish I understood any of what he is singing. Very melodic, that spanish. Aside from that, I have been internet window shopping for various furniture and shelving units for the new place. I cannot wait until I can afford some of these things. My bedroom is going to become so remarkable that I will have no idea what to do with myself.

I'm so gay for decorating.

"I need a fix cause Im goin down,
down to the pits that I left off town,
I need a fix cause Im goin down.

Mother Superior jumped the gun."

I think that I have really gotten used to working this crazy day shift. It means that I get like, no sleep during the work week, but I am managing to do it pretty well. (yeah, its a pun, sue me.)

Right-o. Im out.

well...

It's been 24 hours and I'm already breaking my detox... Goddammit I knew I should have thrown this bud away. So I'm cleaning up starting.... tomorrow

I'm Scared

So I'm gonna pretty much detox for a while. No drugs, limited drinking, no smoking, and I'm going back to the gym. Oh and no hooking up. I made a bad decision and went home with someone and Ben found out about it, which sucked, and it made him really sad. But we just both said we're not gonna talk for a while and were not gonna hook up with other people til we're over each other because basically, he said I'm too good for that. Which is really nice, and we just left it on very good terms. But I'm pretty nervous about cleaning up... I feel like it defines so much about me. But this'll be good for me.

I know my sitch with Ben is fucked up, I know we're weird, but I feel good about this.

I know this is awkwardly written, I'm smoking the rest of this bud, or just throwing what I don't use away

Is it so much to ask?

I don't think I'm asking for much, but seriously all I want is a guy who is
funny
attractive
able to hold a good conversations
occasional smoker
willing to do crazy drugs, but only every once in a while
digs my crazy acidy techno music (even if only after using aforementioned drugs)
good in bed
loves spending time with me
and has his shit reasonably together in his life

is that really so much to ask?

;)

Having kept it mostly secret, here is my official endorsement...

More to come.

Election Brief of the Moment...

Courtesy The Stranger


Warning: Messy math ahead.

I think the pundits skipped lightly over Wyoming and Mississippi mainly because those states were/are unlikely to change the status quo: ie, Obama leading Clinton by well over 100 pledged delegates. Pennsylvania is her next best chance to catch up. Not that she will.

What I find curious is why people aren’t marveling over how accurate the Obama camp’s early February projections have been. That document probably wasn’t leaked in order to manage expectations, people said then—why, it has him winning every February post-Super Tuesday contest save Maine. (He ended up winning those caucuses too.) But if people had taken those projections seriously, they wouldn’t have been surprised that he lost Ohio resoundingly and Texas by a hair. The projections didn’t seem to take the Texas two-step caucus advantage into account, but the primary vote margin was spot on: O 47, C 51.




A Daily Kos diarist has broken down the Obama campaign’s projected and actual delegate counts for the contests up to Wyoming:
Louisiana Projected: 31 / Actual: 34 / Difference: +3
Nebraska Projected: 15 / Actual: 16 / Difference: +1
Virgin Islands Projected: 2 / Actual: 3 / Difference: +1
Washington Projected: 49 / Actual: 52 / Difference: +3
Maine Projected: 10 / Actual: 15 / Difference: +5
Dems Abroad Projected: 5 / Actual: 6 / Difference: +1
D.C Projected: 9 / Actual: 12 / Difference: +3
Maryland Projected: 37 / Actual: 42 / Difference: +5
Virginia Projected: 43 / Actual: 54 / Difference: +11
Hawaii Projected: 11 / Actual: 14 / Difference: +3
Wisconsin Projected: 40 / Actual: 42 / Difference: +2
Ohio Projected: 68 / Actual: 66 / Difference: -2
Rhode Island Projected: 8 / Actual: 8 / Difference: 0
Texas Projected: 92 / Actual: 98 / Difference: +6
Vermont Projected: 9 / Actual: 9 / Difference: 0

Wyoming was projected at 7 delegates, and the actual count is 7. Pretty creepy.

So what’s Obama going to lose in the coming weeks?

According to the memo, we can look forward to Clinton wins in Pennsylvania, West Virginia, Kentucky, and Puerto Rico—a conservative but reasonable assessment. Accordingly, from tomorrow through June 7, we can expect Obama to win approximately 303 additional pledged delegates. Clinton should win approximately 296. Which changes absolutely nothing.

It’s about the superdelegates, stupid. The media ought to be very, very careful about which Clinton narratives they repeat (big states! Obama has to prove himself in Pennsylvania! pledged delegates can actually change their votes!) and which Obama narratives they mimic (more pledged delegates! more states! popular vote!).

Let’s say the projections hold—and Michigan and Florida are not seated. Obama will have 1,379+303 pledged delegates at the convention, for a total of 1,682. Clinton will have 1,526. You need 2,025 to get the nomination, so Obama will need 343 superdelegates, and Clinton will need 499. (Currently they have 210 and 245, respectively, so Obama needs 133 more and Clinton needs 254 more.) There are 795 superdelegates total, so let’s see… Obama needs 39% of the remaining superdelegates and Clinton needs 75% of the remaining superdelegates to clinch the nomination.

No wonder Clinton’s fighting so scrappy for Florida and Michigan.


Also...

COLUMBUS, Miss — Sen. Barack Obama delivered an animated rebuke today of suggestions from the Clintons in recent days that he could run as her vice president.

“Now first of all with all due respect, with all due respect,” he said here during a town hall meeting. “I won twice as many states as Sen. Clinton. I won more of the popular vote than Sen. Clinton. I have more delegates than Sen. Clinton. So I don’t’ know how someone in second place can offer the vice presidency to someone in first place. If I was in second place I could understand but I am in first place right now.

He referenced comments from Bill Clinton in 1992 that his “most important criteria” for vice president was that person must be ready to be commander in chief.

“They have been spending the last two or three weeks” arguing that he is not ready to be commander in chief, Obama said.

“I don’t understand. If I am not ready, why do you think I would be such a great vice president?” Obama asked the crowd, which gave him a standing ovation during his defense. “I don’t understand.”

“You can’t say he is not ready on day one, then you want him to be your vice president,” Obama continued. “I just want everybody to absolutely clear: I am not running for vice president. I am running to be president of the United States of America.”


Please, for the love of our future children, care about this election enough to be informed voters.

Reason #7937 why the existence of Scientology scares me

http://www.amazon.com/Dianetics-Modern-Science-Mental-Health/dp/088404632X/ref=cm_cr_pr_sims_i


this is the Amazon.com review of Dianetics, giving it a staggering 4.5 stars!!! This intrigued me so I checked it out.

The most recent 6 reviews of the book are all 1 star... And coincidentally, there are only 6 reviews total that gave the book 1 star according to the chart. The three reviews on the front page (all 5 stars) are the "most helpful" reviews - and only 25 out of almost 950 people found the first one helpful. Apparently, scientologists patrol this page reporting any review that gives it a low score, so it will be removed from the website. What you're left with is nothing but the scientologists opinions of the book, which are mostly 5 stars.

This is a cult. This is scary. These are the type of weak-minded people who can cause major harm in the world, whether to themselves, or others.

I try to stay open minded with religions. This is not a religion. It's an abomination that was brought to the world by a man who either had nothing better to do than ruin others lives, or who was out of his mind himself. I suppose if it makes you a good person, whatever. But I'd avoid it like the plague.

not that I'm surprised by this, but it's still pretty scary

Since I figure this is the easiest way to let people know, Ben broke up with me. Same story as always, he loves me but it's just not working. Life's a bitch.

Can't wait to see you all next week

Rothbury Festival

So here's an interesting little concert festival to think about...

The inaugural year of the Rothbury festival - what many hippie jam festival enthusiasts are referring to as "the New Bonnaroo" in reaction to the frustration with the direction that the festival has started going on (editorial comment - I have to admit I'm not overly impressed by the B-roo lineup this year (where's the electronic music???) but I don't think Bonnaroo is going in a bad direction - they're bringing in a lot of GREAT musical acts but it's just a different sound... anyway). Where is the Rothbury festival? Why, in Rothbury, MICHIGAN. On Lake Michigan about an HOUR AND A HALF FROM LANSING. Some highlights of the lineup:
Dave Matthews Band
311
Phil Lesh and Friends
Primus
Modest Mouse
STS9
Disco Biscuits
Bassnectar

So, I'm strongly considering going to this instead of Bonnaroo, unless the late adds for it really impress me. I mean, Michigan in the summer time? that will be awesome.

www.rothburyfestival.com

Fuck yeah - let's get Michigan back on the map for something besides Detroit

Quote of the Day

"Son, we live in a world that has walls, and those walls have to be guarded by men with guns. Whose gonna do it? You? You, Lt. Weinburg? I have a greater responsibility than you could possibly fathom. You weep for Santiago, and you curse the marines. You have that luxury. You have the luxury of not knowing what I know. That Santiago's death, while tragic, probably saved lives. And my existence, while grotesque and incomprehensible to you, saves lives. You don't want the truth because deep down in places you don't talk about at parties, you want me on that wall, you need me on that wall. We use words like honor, code, loyalty. We use these words as the backbone of a life spent defending something. You use them as a punchline. I have neither the time nor the inclination to explain myself to a man who rises and sleeps under the blanket of the very freedom that I provide, and then questions the manner in which I provide it. I would rather you just said thank you, and went on your way, Otherwise, I suggest you pick up a weapon, and stand a post. Either way, I don't give a damn what you think you are entitled to. "

- Colonel Jessup in "A Few Good Men"

Don't know if anyone heard but...

This is an article I found on Variety after reading some info on "Wolverine" on Wikipedia...GAMBIT!!

Twentieth Century Fox has added three more superheroes to "X-Men Origins: Wolverine," with Ryan Reynolds set to play Deadpool, "Friday Night Lights" regular Taylor Kitsch to star as Gambit and hip-hop artist will.i.am joining the cast as John Wraith.

Liev Schreiber, Danny Huston and Lynn Collins round out the cast as Victor Creed/Sabretooth, Col. William Stryker and Kayla Silver Fox, respectively.

Hugh Jackman reprises the role of Wolverine in the "X-Men" spinoff that Gavin Hood is lensing in New Zealand, Australia and New Orleans. Pic bows May 1, 2009.

David Benioff penned the script, which would reveal the origins of the Wolverine character and introduce other mutants not yet seen in the "X-Men" franchise.

Marvel has been eyeing the possibility of casting Reynolds as Deadpool, an assassin with self-healing powers, for some time with the idea of spinning off the character into his own film series should the character prove popular among moviegoers.

Fox and Marvel have also long wanted to add the card-throwing character of Gambit to the "X-Men" franchise but could never find a way to give him enough screen time among the many other mutants that have appeared in each film.

Black Eyed Peas frontman will.i.am will play Wraith, a mutant who has the power to teleport, and is another test subject of the Weapon X program that created Wolverine and other mercenaries. It would be his first film role.

Awesome right? Go Marvel comics movies!

So this idea that I had is pretty fuckin' sweet...

And its an idea for a drinking game.

(Yes, apartment dwellers, I know that you know about this game. So now you know that I know that you know about this new game, please still feel free to chip in your two cents.)

Okay. So this idea came to me when I was searching through the movie titles at my parents house after my sister asked me to pick a movie. I was not in the mood to watch a movie because I knew that we would be leaving soon so I decided to name off porn versions of every actual movie.

I figure that we are all clever enough to come up with something within 3-5 seconds. So the deal would be that you lose points for every second after the 5th until you figure out a title. Each lost point would be a drink. So I will hereafter refer to "points" as "drinks". See a problem, fix a problem.

The way that you would win drinks would be something-along-the-lines-of-but-not-necessarily-the-same-as this:

Using innuendo without making the film NC-17 (This one is totally up for interpretation. It could become more along the lines of: a really shitty/unfunny version of whatever porn name you come up with.) = 1 drink to pass (which will hereafeter be referred to as "DP")
Involving Sexual Devices such as Dildos or Fake Vaginas = 2 DP's
Naming Actual Sexual Acts = 5 DP's

**Bonus Films**
These are films that already sound like filthy, dirty, ridiculously funny porn. Films like, "Hot Rod" or "Fun with Dick and Jane" or "Black Snake Moan" or "The Vagina Monologues".
Okay, so the way that one would get points on these movies would be by coming up with a fake plotline for the movie, but also making it a porno. Get it? Right? I am telling you, this could be phenomenally fun! These would be worth double the DP's! (you would recieve double time as well)

Oh, and I thought of adding one more Bonus Card. So you would get this card, right, and it would say something like "Backdoor Blonde Slutfest 69" or "Candy Girls 9". (I think I have that last one...hahaha) and you would have to figure out a way to make that correct for censors. That would be a really difficult one so it would be worth triple the DP's! (you would recieve triple time as well)

So yeah...that is the game. The winner is the one who isn't dead. Suggestions? Wanna play? Got an idea for a name?

GET THE FEBRUARY ISSUE OF THE OFFICIAL XBOX MAGAZINE!!!!

The February 2008 issue of Official Xbox Magazine includes a free bonus disc with three exclusive songs for the Xbox 360 version of Rock Band.

"Rock Rebellion" Bang Camaro
"Shake" Count Zero
"Sprøde" Freezepop

Awesome. Awesome. Awesome.


Night.

Thank you, Sexy-Hungry Drunk Girl, for the Major Self Esteem Boost...and the 2$.

Talk about an award-winning night over at JJ's.

First, the place is fucking busy. Well, busy for a Wednesday night.
Then, some jack-in-the-asshole tries to rip food right out of the trays in front of me. So I called him a tool and asked him to take his "Skeevy Dee-vee-us hands outside to enjoy your freaky fast sub." With a smile. I cannot believe I did it, and I am so pissed that no one heard me but him.
And most importantly, some drunk bombshell waltzes in with her also-hot-but-not-as-hot-nor-my-type friend and proceeds to order a couple of subs. Soz I madez'em. And then this gal, completely bombed, starts to tell me that I am working in a very sexy manner. So I flirted for a sec. Whatev's. Now, I can bet that most of this was the alcohol...but hey, when a gorgeous person starts aggressively engaging you in conversation, well, it just makes a guy feel man-pretty again. So I finish everything up and hand her the food, 'cause I'm pretty sweet like that. She rips open the sandwich and takes a bite. I had to get back to work, so I stopped paying attention to her...3 minutes or so pass before she yells at me to come talk to her. I does. 'Cause she has nice ta ta mia's. Lo and behold, at the end of the quick little conversation she hands me a pair of crumpled up bills. Sweetness.

So yeah, that was that.

Then I came home, kicked with the Flaming Lips, got stoned, wrote this, and am now sitting here trying to think of what I would write next if it were the future. Does that make sense? I think it does. Anyway, I want 800 Lips t-shirts.

Let There Be Peace On Earth

awww....

Tuesday

Freezepop in Lansing. 9:00. 18+ $5

I'll be there, and so better all y'all bitches :)

So is it bad...

...if I dream about doing drugs? A lot. Like most of the dreams I've had over the last month?

There's a part of me that feels like this is a REALLY bad sign, but for whatever reason, I have this total disconnect in my head about the fact that drugs aren't good for you. I've been lucky - never gotten in trouble, never felt concernedly addicted to anything, but honestly I haven't done anything before where I've said "I should never do this again."

I'm not really worried about it, I'm getting my shit done and everything, but it's so ridiculous that even things I HAVEN'T tried are showing up in my dreams... haha

D.A.R.E.? Yeah, you failed hardcore ;)

Advancing My Skills

So I was walking with The Goerg earlier, and I told him about my idea to join a martial arts class next year. I was thinking that something like that would be a good skill to have. The Goerg agreed. You never know when you'll end up in a bar fight, or a fight at a party, or in a fight at the zoo. Being able to defend yourself properly is very useful and I don't know why I never did this before.

What if, in the unlikely but plausible scenario, aliens came down from space and started attacking. But they were impervious to bullets, but not to karate chops. Or groin kicks. So you have to karate chop and groin kick your way to defeating the aliens, who mysteriously don't use air strikes, but that's because they're stupid aliens who die from karate chops. So, if that ever happened (it could happen, you never fucking know), then I would like to have the know-how to karate chop those bastards with the most efficiency...and possibly break a board or 2 along the way.

I also think I'm going to teach myself to play the guitar sometime in the near future. It took me too long to get into trying this, I know, but now I really have the desire to play it. Also, you have to be able to play a rocking guitar solo after you karate chop some mother fucking aliens! ROCKN'ROLLA!!!

If Only It Was That Easy

So we watched Across The Universe earlier today. It got me thinking...what it would be like to take a bag full of clothes and hit the road and end up in a new place. Any place. As long as you meet new, exciting people, like the ones in the movie. People who know how to have a good time and who can get by with whatever they have. People who can teach you amazing new things. To live a life that you never thought possible. Not doing illegal shit, nothing like that. No bank robbing for me. I would like to be in a place that is basically carefree, where you get by by doing something creative. The only problem with that, is that I'm not very creative. This idea would work amazingly well if I knew how to play an instrument or if life were like a movie. It would be one hell of an experience, but I doubt I'd be able to pull off something like that. First off, I don't know how to live without money. Second, I wouldn't know how to find people like that. Last, I doubt I'd be able to just up and leave everyone like that. Oh well, it was just a thought anyways.

Short of an Abyss...

I can think of nothing I would rather sink into at the moment.

I am:

tense, stressed, sore, tired, frustrated, panicked, and just more than a little bit afraid of my fears.

E GAD


We are all at a mojor turning point in our lives. Some of us will be graduating soon, moving on the careers, starting a life. I, on the other hand, will be figuring the things out that I should have known years ago. I guess that I am a little more than freaked about my life. I have a major tendency to overanalyze everything. Everything. Like, to the point that it can become crippling. To the point that I can become trapped in my fucked up head, crack a joke, groove to music, and work without stopping, noticing, flinching.

It is pretty fucked up.

I need something big.
I need.
Perhaps too much.

Beer tonight?

Se7en...

I'm watching it on TNT. And despite the amount that is removed for network television, I can't help but be reminded how brilliant this movie is. The cinematography is amazing, the acting is amazing, Brad Pitt makes me want to leap through the screen and rape him, and the story is so well paced and executed that it has become the movie that I compare EVERY other homicide thriller to. That's my random thought of the day